More than a dream

im standin in the middle of the stage
the worse part is over baby just flip the page
one day ill make it with the waynes and the Js
im tired of the horse talk these people and their neighs (nays)
im tryna get back the innocent mind i once had
before it was polluted and clouded with each passing fads
my head is spinnin like the exorcist did
everyone says im irresponsible and just a kid
i just sit back and listen
and i block it out
then i think back and i wonder whats missin
common sense is my new base
i got a different drummer
i remember it like it was yesterday
i fell in love with music that summer
or was it just lust
its funny how life works that way
u start to trust it
then somethin happens in between
i feel like im runnin out of time but im only 15
i felt like i was runnin outta time so i vacationed with my team
the team of just me
i feel as though i can spit hits consistently
r u listining
its ok im used to bein ignored

never got to much attention
i wonder if i died would i finally get some mention
my sister told me that im her favorite rapper
i teared up and started to laugh at her
i couldnt let her know how that made me feel
i bottle my emotions for a reason i hope it doesnt kill
i dont want people to know when im feeling bad
they'd kill me if i ever told them i was sad
i feel like ive been had
i was told i could be anything in elementary
then they do what ever just to break me down
im standing in theyre face and they talk like im not around
i have the same problems but still no answers found
maybe this is nothing more than a dream
chances dont just come around

Not yet

legends are fallin all around me
im scared to let it out
cuz theyll all clown me
well ima write it all
please dont start to doubt me
im hiding in my fears
but now im drowning
uh, i guess never have learned my lesson
ill never tell it all
you gotta keep em guessin
so i bottle it up
unless you ask the questions
i dont hide the feelings
i hide the reaction
were high off life
so now were relaxin
ill never tell it i never will
ill write it down an acquired skill
i might release it later
at the request of the haters
i love all of them more than my fans
they keep me grounded like the deserts sands
worst metaphor wheres the criticism
im waiting on it cuz i no its in them
i love it when they talk about me
it shows that im on their mind
the fame is not what i hope to find
i just wanna make it

less than, backslash, three

i havnt told any1 what i wanna be
only 2 people know just my sister and me
im scared of bein rejected by the people i love
become an outcast like the only black dove
i swear
im balancin the dreams my parents put on me
and the ones that come naturally
they tell me they want a ph.d
but i just want a EP
im tryin my hardest to finally let them know
but when i get enough courage the fear just seems to grow
so i push it back again ill tell them next time
or maybe ill put it in my next rhyme
let them read it for themselves
i hope they understand and this attempt doesnt fail
like the last 1
drake was so far gone
i think im a little too close
he wants to be successful
i just dont wanna be a ghost
patrick swayze flows
put it on my life imma let them know
i promise imma let em know
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